Sometimes I wonder what my hockey career is worth.Blood, sweat, and tears, sure.But losing Ash?I can't.I shouldn't ask this of her.To ignore the rumors.To let go of the scandal.To accept the spotlight.To give up her dreams so I can chase mine.Balancing it all, though?Well, that's a different sort of torture.I have no idea how long I can hold on without my past catching up to us.And when it does?Well, Ash deserves better than a screw up like me.